Today I've decided to pull something from my old files, something I wrote a long time ago. As mentioned here before, I've always been a big Star Trek fan, particularly of Star Trek: The Next Generation. This is a short story set sometime between the films First Contact and Insurrection, in part to explain (to myself) why Data removed his emotion chip for the latter movie and reverted to his old personality and speech pattern, and partially to tie up an old thread in his history that had never been resolved or addressed to my satisfaction. I can't claim that it's been read by a lot of people, but I've had it up on fanfiction.net for a while and the response from those who have read it has been generally positive, so I thought I'd share it here. I obviously don't own any rights to this property and I'm not making any money from it. This is strictly for fun and to develop my writing skills.
STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION
Delayed Reaction
I
Captain's Log, Stardate 52596.3: The Enterprise is currently escorting a freighter convoy from the Alpha Proxima system to Starbase 375, where our supplies will be distributed to the various fleets and taskforces that are conducting combat operations along the Cardassian front. This sort of duty would not normally be assigned to a Sovereign-class starship, but the supplies carried by the convoy consist of deuterium and its antimatter equivalent, two substances which serve as vital sources of fuel for matter-antimatter reactors. Not only could these supplies be put to devastating use by the enemy, but our starships have been consuming a higher quantity of these substances than normal, due to the increased tempo of warfare, and resupply is desperately needed. It is not believed that Dominion forces have encroached this far into Federation territory, but Starfleet Command has decided not to take any chances.
Counselor
Deanna Troi sighed deeply and regarded her current patient, seated across from
her on the plush sofa. “I've been expecting something like this,” she told him,
sadly.
Data
gazed quizzically at her. “I do not understand, Counselor. To what are you
referring?”
Troi
smiled patiently at him. In one smooth motion, she rose from her seat, moved
around the low coffee table between them, and seated herself on the couch next
to the android officer. “Data, Geordi has mentioned a few things to me,” she
said. “He's concerned about you.”
Data's
face screwed up in an expression of genuine puzzlement. Troi loved that
expression. To her, it bespoke her android friend's complete innocence.
“Concerned
about what?” he asked.
“He's noticed that you've been spending more and more time with your emotion chip deactivated. Commander Riker has noticed it, too, but it was Geordi who convinced me to see you.”
Data
looked away from her, studying the walls for a moment. He did not often find
himself in the office of the ship's counselor. For many years, his android
existence had left him without any emotions whatsoever, and so he had had
little need for counseling. But in recent years he had begun to make use of an
emotion chip that had been designed by his creator as a final gift and had
occasionally sought her advice on his newfound feelings.
The
emotions granted to him by the chip had been overwhelming at first,
particularly after it had become fused to his neural net and could not be shut
off. He and Geordi had worked for months after the Veridian crisis to find a
way to remove the chip and ultimately succeeded. They had even built in a relay
that would allow him to deactivate the chip with a simple command through one
of his sub-processors, allowing him to turn his emotions on and off at will. At
the time, Geordi had been openly envious.
“Please
don't be angry with Geordi,” Troi appealed to him when he didn't respond for
several moments. “He's only trying to help.”
Data
looked at her with what appeared to be genuine surprise. “I am not angry at
Geordi,” he told her. “He is my friend, and his concern is deeply appreciated.
However, I assure you I am functioning within normal parameters.”
Troi
sighed again. “All right, if that's so, then why have you been spending so much
time with your emotions turned off?”
Again,
Data looked confused. “Is it not my responsibility to ensure that my personal
feelings do not interfere with my duties?”
Finally,
she felt like she was getting somewhere. “Have your feelings been
getting in the way of your duties?” she asked.
Data's
response was nearly instantaneous. “No. I have deactivated my emotions whenever
they have threatened to do so.”
Troi
was suddenly struck with a desire to beat her head, or perhaps Data's, against
a large, blunt object. She suppressed it. “Data, has it ever occurred to you
that, if you're constantly having to turn off your emotions to perform your
duties, there might be something wrong?”
Data
peered at her with those large, golden irises. “Do you believe my emotion chip
is malfunctioning?” he asked, suddenly concerned.
Troi
shook her head and got up from the couch. Slowly, she paced around the room. “No,
Data.” She took a long moment to consider and decided to try a different tact.
“Data,
how long has it been since you installed your emotion chip?”
“Four years, seven months, three days,” he replied earnestly.
“And
it has only been since that time that you've had access to genuine emotions, is
that correct?”
“Yes,
counselor. My positronic matrix was not originally programmed with emotional
subroutines.”
“And
yet,” she continued, warming to the subject, “you lived a full life leading up
to that point.”
Data
said nothing, but continued to gaze at her, wondering where she might be going
with this line of thought.
“You
experienced friendship, camaraderie, love, loss, betrayal, even anger and pain.”
Data
shook his head. “That is incorrect, counselor. Without my emotion chip, I was
incapable of experiencing the emotional responses you ascribe to me.”
Troi
allowed herself to hope that she was finally getting through. She seated
herself once again in her original chair and looked directly at Data. “You're
right, of course, but that's exactly the point. You had such a wealth of
experiences in the years before you acquired your chip, many of which would
have produced intense emotional responses in anyone else, and yet you
never felt any of those resultant emotions. You have a
lifetime's worth of experiences that you've never really experienced,
and as an android you can recall every moment of those experiences as if they
happened yesterday. It was only a matter of time before those feelings caught
up with you.”
Data
considered that for a moment. “The recent difficulties with my emotion chip,”
he said, carefully, “do appear to have revolved around recollections of past
events. I am occasionally reminded of moments, or even people, of great
importance in my life which now seem to trigger intense emotional responses.”
“Would
you care to be more specific?” asked Troi. Data had long ago overcome his
tendency to ramble, she knew, and he sometimes required a bit of mild prodding
to provide more detail.
The
android paused for a long moment, and Troi wondered if he might require more
encouragement. Before she pressed him further, however, he answered.
“It
would seem to have begun with Lieutenant Hernandez's death several weeks ago.
My emotional response to that event was . . . astonishing, to say the least.”
Deanna
nodded, sympathetically. “We were all affected by her death, especially
considering the way she died.” She hesitated for a moment, then pressed on. “Were
you close to Lieutenant Hernandez?”
“No,”
Data answered, honestly. “That is what struck me as so unusual. I knew the
lieutenant only in passing, and her death should not have affected me in the
way that it did.”
Troi
was beginning to feel more confident that she understood the root of Data's
problems, but she needed him to explore the issues himself. “Certain kinds of
events,” she offered, “can sometimes have unexpected effects on us, and
witnessing the death of a colleague certainly qualifies.”
“And
yet,” Data continued, “my thoughts in the following weeks seemed centered not
on Lieutenant Hernandez herself, but on the more distant past. The manner of
her death . . . reminded me of something else.”
“Data,”
Troi explained, calmly, “I wasn't on that away team, so I didn't actually
witness what happened. Perhaps, if you could elaborate for me, I might
understand better.”
Slowly,
hesitantly, Data began to relate the events to her, and Deanna listened
intently, hoping she could find a way to help her friend.
II
The
away team materialized on a desolate stretch of land. The moon they were on was
class-L, barely capable of supporting humanoid life, and in every direction the
eye detected nothing but barren rock arranged in hills, outcroppings, and even
low mountains. The atmosphere was breathable, but only just within the lower
limits of human oxygen requirements, and the lack of sufficient greenhouse
gasses left the temperature noticeably cold. It was an altogether inhospitable
environment.
Commander William Riker, at the head of the team, immediately tapped his combadge. “Riker to Enterprise. We've arrived at the landing site.”
Captain
Picard's voice echoed metallically from the small speakers. “Acknowledged,
Number One. Exercise extreme caution.”
Wordlessly,
Riker motioned to the rest of his team to spread out. Using the rocky landscape
for cover, Riker and Data drew their phasers and moved off to the right.
Lieutenants Daniels and Hernandez cautiously moved out to the left, their own
weapons also held ready.
The Enterprise was
investigating a Starfleet distress call, received only minutes before from the
Tapa Delti system. Prior to the war, standard procedure would have been to call
up Starfleet transit orders to see if any ships or shuttles had been ordered
through that sector, but ever since the outbreak of hostilities with the
Dominion, Starfleet Command had begun classifying such orders to hinder
Dominion intelligence gathering. Unfortunately, the tradeoff for such secrecy
was that it made it harder for ships like the Enterprise to
determine exactly what was going on when responding to distress signals. Once
in orbit, sensors had detected an ion trail that led to a mass of debris on the
surface, debris that could be a downed Federation
shuttlecraft. The surrounding rock, however, had a very high content of heavy
metals that interfered with sensor readings, so the only way to know for sure
had been to beam down and investigate.
Riker
and Data quickly reached a large outcropping of rock and knelt down behind it.
Data pulled out his tricorder and opened it, examining the readings.
The
android shook his head. “As expected, sir, the heavy metallic content in the
rock interferes with normal tricorder operation. The device's effective range
is no more than 10 meters.”
Riker
scowled. “That's barely enough to give us any advance warning at all. A scout
on high ground with a good set of binoculars could spot us faster.”
Data
nodded in reluctant agreement. “That is correct, sir. And unfortunately, the
Jem'Hadar shrouding ability could give them a distinct advantage over us.” He
cocked his head in thought. “Perhaps Commander La Forge would prove useful as a
lookout.”
Riker
shook his head. “No, I don't want to risk another beam-in until we know what
we're dealing with. Do you know where the shuttle debris is?”
“One
hundred twenty meters in that direction, sir.” Data indicated in the
appropriate direction.
“Let's
keep moving.” With Riker leading the way, the two officers worked their way
across the landscape, carefully using the terrain as cover.
* * *
Nearby,
Lieutenant Daniels and Lieutenant (Junior Grade) Hernandez crouched behind
another set of boulders. Daniels glanced down at his phaser rifle, now held at
the ready in both hands, and verified its power setting. Hernandez did the
same. That done, Daniels cautiously peered over the top of the boulder,
attempting to locate Riker and Data some meters away.
“Can
you see them?” asked Hernandez.
Daniels
shook his head. “No, they're staying pretty low, and probably using a
roundabout approach, if I know Commander Riker. I'm sure he's worried about
running into a Jem'Hadar patrol.”
Hernandez
glanced around, anxiously. “Do you think they're here?” she asked.
Daniels
shrugged. “No way of knowing, but it's wartime. It always pays to be careful.”
Hernandez
nodded, and wordlessly, they began moving again in what Daniels believed to be
the direction of the shuttle debris. Cautiously, they moved from one boulder or
large outcropping to the next in turn, one of them constantly peering around
and watching the other's back. After several dozen meters, the pair of security
officers paused again.
“Have you ever actually seen a Jem'Hadar, sir?” Hernandez asked.
Daniels
answered without looking at her, preferring not to make eye contact. “Yeah,” he
admitted, slowly, but seemed reluctant to say more.
“Are
they . . .” she began, hesitantly. After a brief moment, she tried again. “Are
they as . . . scary . . . as people say?”
Daniels
did look at her now, finally making eye contact. She was scared, he suddenly
realized. She had only recently transferred to the Enterprise, and
had never been in combat before, but after several months of standard security
duties he had thought she was ready. He was beginning to reevaluate that
judgement, but it was too late to do anything about it.
“No
scarier than any other hostile,” he told her, downplaying the threat as much as
he could. In truth, Jem'Hadar were among the most dangerous and brutal enemies
a Starfleet officer could face, but the last thing he needed was a panicky
junior officer on a dangerous away mission.
Hernandez,
however, would not so easily dismiss her concerns. She glanced down at her
phaser rifle. “I hear it used to be standard procedure to set phasers on stun,”
she told him, pointedly.
Daniels
looked away again. He couldn't deny it—it was in all the regulations—but he
didn't want to add fuel to her fears. “Just keep that set above level five and
you'll be fine,” he instructed her. Without another word, he moved out from
behind their cover and continued toward the debris, trusting his junior officer
to follow.
* * *
Some
meters away, Riker and Data were making good time. Unencumbered by the bulky
phaser rifles, the two were able to quickly slip under and between rocks that
might otherwise have given them trouble. Actually, Riker doubted that Data
would have been encumbered even in a full environment suit, but for his own
sake he was glad that they had elected to carry only type-2 phasers with their
tricorders. Riker had always placed more value on maneuverability and speed
than firepower.
Data
was consulting his tricorder again, no doubt double-checking his judgement of
their position. “We should be nearing the debris site, Commander,” he said. At
a glance from Riker he pointed over a nearby ridge. “It should be just over
there.”
Nodding,
the big commander led the way toward the ridge in question and cautiously
peered over the edge. He was rewarded with the sight of a downed Starfleet
personnel shuttle that looked to have been buried more than a meter into the
ground. Behind it, a long swath of overturned soil marked where the small ship
had undoubtedly touched down and continued to slide under her momentum. Metallic
debris was scattered all around, a good indication that the shuttle had started
to come apart under the force of the crash. Fortunately, the debris seemed to
consist mostly of very small pieces, and the pod itself appeared to have
remained mostly intact. He sincerely hoped the pilot and any passengers had
survived.
Careful
not to leave himself exposed for too long, Riker took only a moment to absorb
the scene before withdrawing his head back under the cover of the ridge.
“It's a shuttle, all right. Looks like a type-6.” He scowled. “So we could have as many as eight possible survivors. Can you tell if there are any life forms in the area at all?”
Data
worked his tricorder again, but Riker could see a modicum of frustration on his
android friend's face. Ever since he had achieved his goal of obtaining
emotions, Riker had found it easier to tell what Data was thinking.
“The
interference is still too great,” Data admitted at length. “I am barely able to
read the debris from the shuttle, and I believe that is only because I know
what I am looking for.”
Riker
scowled and turned back to the ridge. Carefully, he again peered over the rocks
at their goal. “There's an awful lot of open space down there,” he grumbled. “I
don't see any movement from here, but that doesn't mean no one else is around.
Do you think you could cover that distance faster than I could? If you can take
cover in the wreckage, I could cover you from up here.”
Riker
waited a moment for the android's answer, but after Data had not replied for
several seconds, he turned to look at his friend—
—and
found himself staring straight down the barrel of a Jem'Hadar pulse cannon, the
weapon's bayonet nearly scraping against his skin. The Jem'Hadar soldier
holding the cannon glared threateningly at him, as if daring him to move. Only
a meter or two away, Riker could see Data in a similar position, with a second
Jem'Hadar weapon trained on his android head. The two officers' eyes met, and
even after all the time that had passed since Data had lost his former
stoicism, Riker was still surprised to see apprehension on his friend's face.
* * *
The
two senior officers, having been stripped of their phasers, tricorders, and
combadges, were unceremoniously dragged down to the shuttle wreckage by their
Jem'Hadar captors. As they neared the shuttle, Riker watched as yet another
Jem'Hadar appeared out of thin air and approached them.
“Report!”
snapped the new arrival, clearly in charge of the other two.
“Four
Starfleet officers have arrived to investigate this craft's disappearance,”
replied Riker's captor. “These two approached this position the fastest, and we
had no choice but to intervene before they drew too close. The other two are
still out there, being tracked by more of our number. We await your
instructions, First.”
The
first approached Riker closely, peering into his face. “I am First Ramaka'tar,”
he snarled, threateningly. “You were foolish to come with so few guards,
Commander.”
Riker
said nothing. With most other adversaries, he might have tried to bluster his
way out of this, to intimidate them with his own physical size and
aggressiveness or the threat of Starfleet retaliation. But Riker had had enough
experience with Jem'Hadar to know that such efforts were worthless with them.
One could not intimidate someone who viewed himself as already dead and was
fighting to reclaim his own life.
“These
two appear to be the senior officers,” offered the third soldier, who had not
yet spoken. “The other two are lieutenants, one of them merely junior grade,
and belong to the services division. That one,” he indicated Riker, “was the
only command officer among them.”
Ramaka'tar
seemed to consider them for a moment, then nodded approvingly at his two
underlings. “You have done well,” he told them. “These two should prove
valuable in discouraging their starship from taking rash action. Put them with
the other.”
Roughly,
Riker and Data were dragged to the other side of the shuttle, which had been
out of sight from Riker's former vantage point, and deposited on the ground
with their backs to the wreckage. Riker noticed, absently, that Data's soldier
seemed to have a bit of trouble dragging the android into position, no doubt
owing to his friend's considerable mass. Riker knew that Data, with his
superior speed and strength, could certainly escape from these two guards and
probably take them out in the process, but the android probably feared what
would happen to his human companion during such an escape attempt.
The
Jem'Hadar seemed unfamiliar with who and what Data was and did not seem to know
or care which ship they belonged to. Riker was glad to have an ace in the hole,
but he wasn't sure yet how best to use it. They still did not know how many
Jem'Hadar belonged to this unit, and he doubted that Data could evade all of
them long enough to return to the ship.
When
the two prisoners were seated to their satisfaction, the guards stepped back
and issued a terse instruction. “Stay,” they said in unison, before shrouding
and disappearing into the landscape. Jem'Hadar, Riker realized, made excellent
guards in addition to soldiers. A prisoner could never dare to misbehave, not
knowing when a shrouded Jem'Hadar might be nearby to witness it. The Founders
seemed to thrive on instilling paranoia in their enemies.
The
commander glanced over at his friend, and suddenly realized they were not
alone. Seated on the other side of the android was yet another Starfleet
officer in command division red. His rank insignia rated him as a junior grade
lieutenant. Data had noticed him, too, but had not yet dared to speak. Neither
of them were sure how their captors would react to conversation among the
prisoners, but Riker decided he had to take the chance.
“Are
you all right, lieutenant?” he asked in a low voice.
The
younger officer nodded, weakly. “I think so, sir.”
Riker
examined him more closely, and realized that the lieutenant was probably
putting on a brave front. His uniform was soaked with blood, and he had
numerous gashes littered across his face and forehead. Nearly every inch of
exposed skin was covered in dirt or blood, some dried and some fresh, and the
expression on the young man's face spoke of pain being endured.
“What's
your name?” he asked.
“Nash,
sir. Adam Nash. I was on my way to deliver a set of orders when a Jem'Hadar
fighter attacked out of nowhere. It was all I could do to stay alive long
enough to set down here.”
“We're
going to get you back to our ship just as soon as we can,” he assured the
injured man. Data glanced at him, experienced enough to know that Riker, too,
was putting on a brave front, but it was important for the young officer to
believe that his commanders had the situation well in hand.
The
young man shook his head. “That's not important, sir. I'm Admiral Josten's
attaché. I was ordered to ferry a set of deployment orders to the Eighth Fleet
in the Paxa system.” He grimaced again, and placed one hand on his belly,
clearly the source of whatever pain he was feeling. “The admiral didn't want to
risk transmission over subspace.”
Data
glanced from the lieutenant, to Riker, and back again. “Where are these orders
now?” he asked.
The
young officer took a deep breath before answering. “I had them on an isolinear
chip in a locked case aboard the shuttle. I was knocked unconscious in the
crash, but I don't think the Jem'Hadar have bothered with any of my equipment.
They don't seem to be interested in that sort of thing, but I'm sure their
Vorta will be.”
Riker
scanned the surrounding landscape, absorbing the new information. This
complicated matters considerably.
* * *
Nearby,
Daniels and Hernandez were still moving toward the crash site. Hernandez was in
the lead, having just passed Daniels in their hopscotch method of covering each
other, and had stopped to peer around the corner of a large rock formation.
“Sir!”
she hissed, excitedly. Pulling back around the end of the rock, she motioned
for Daniels to join her.
“It
see it, sir!” she whispered when her commander drew within earshot. Daniels
crept to the corner and peered out into the landscape as Hernandez continued. “Commander
Riker and Commander Data are already there, but I'm not sure what they're
doing.”
Daniels
pulled back and looked at her after having gotten a good look for himself. “They're
prisoners,” he informed her, carefully. He wasn't sure how dependable she might
be in a combat situation, but it appeared that they suddenly had a situation
that needed to be dealt with. “I don't see any guards, but it looks like
they've been relieved of their phasers and combadges. We need to get them out
of there, but we need to be careful not to get ourselves killed in the process.”
Hernandez
hesitated for a second. “Jem'Hadar?” she asked, tentatively.
“Keep
your mind on your job, Lieutenant,” Daniels replied, sternly. “Just because
they're shrouded doesn't mean they're invincible. They have to deshroud before
they attack, so keep your eyes and ears open.”
Hernandez
nodded and visibly steeled herself for the task ahead. Maybe she is ready, Daniels
thought. If she can control her fear, we might get through this yet.
Taking
the lead, Daniels altered their course and began working his way around the
crash site. He wanted to get in a better position to see everything before he
made any decisions about how to proceed.
* * *
“Commander.”
Riker
was startled out of his thoughts by the sudden sound of Data's voice. He had
been trying to think of a way to get inside the shuttle without getting killed
by their guards, or at least without getting killed before he could destroy the
tactical communication, but he was coming up empty.
“What
is it, Data?” he asked, grateful for the interruption. Maybe Data has
an idea.
Data
answered without looking at him. His eyes remained fixed on a distant point on
the landscape. “Lieutenant Daniels is here.”
Casually,
Riker moved his head and looked in the direction that Data seemed to be gazing.
He couldn't see anything, but he knew Data's eyes were better than his own.
“We'd
better think of something before they come charging in here,” he told the
android, trying to keep his voice low enough that their captors wouldn't
overhear.
Data
cocked his head to the side in the way he usually did when an idea occurred to
him. “We may have an advantage the Jem'Hadar are unaware of.”
Riker
looked at his friend and waited patiently for him to continue. He knew Data was
probably still considering the particulars of his idea.
“It
is well known,” said the android, “that the Jem'Hadar shroud effectively
conceals the soldiers' heat signature as well as visible light, rendering them
undetectable even to thermal imaging. Their bodies must still give off heat,
however, as a bodily necessity. This means that they would still leave a modest
heat signature on whatever surfaces they come into contact with, and in this
cold climate that includes the ground they are walking on. My infrared vision
is detecting what can only be described as . . . footprints.”
Riker
strove to reign in his sudden excitement. “How many can you see?” he asked.
Data
considered the question before answering. “I am detecting at least eight
Jem'Hadar in the immediate vicinity, five of which have arrived while we have
been sitting here. Perhaps they are returning to this location for some
purpose.”
Riker
nodded. “Standard crew complement for a Jem'Hadar fighter is twelve. I hope
that's all we're facing.” He leaned past Data to speak to Nash. “Are you sure
there was only one ship?” he asked.
Nash
nodded, weakly. “I got a look at the sensor board during the attack. There was
only one.”
“It
may be prudent to assume that we face no more Jem'Hadar than that,” agreed
Data. “If there are more, there would surely be no hope of escape in any event.”
Riker's
eyes narrowed as he scanned the landscape again. “So we have an advantage. The
question is, what do we do with it?”
Another
voice cut through the surroundings. “Commander! Riker, isn't it?”
The
first officer of the Enterprise looked up to see a smiling
Vorta approaching from around the shuttle hull to their right, escorted by two
more unshrouded Jem'Hadar. Clearly, he was in charge of this platoon.
With no apparent fear while surrounded by so many of his soldiers, the newcomer knelt down beside Riker and spoke casually, as if they were enjoying a nice cup of coffee in a lounge somewhere. “I was told the Enterprise was on patrol in this sector, but I didn't expect to actually meet you. I must admit, your reputation precedes you.”
“Charmed,”
snarled Riker, sarcastically. The Vorta seemed unfazed.
“Forgive
me,” he said. “Where are my manners? My name is Valdesh. Our landing site was
some distance from here, and I'm afraid Jem'Hadar are able to cover ground much
more quickly than Vorta. I hope you haven't found their company too tiresome?”
This
Vorta was beginning to annoy Riker, as most Vorta did. He decided to be direct
and cut through the meaningless social pleasantries. “What do you want?” he
demanded.
Valdesh
just chuckled. “Why, nothing, Commander. Why should I want anything? We're at
war. When my Jem'Hadar found you, they had a choice: kill you or take you
prisoner. You two have the fortune of being relatively senior officers, so you
were taken prisoner.” With an arrogant smirk and a helpless shrug, he
continued: “Your companions, I'm afraid, won't be so lucky.”
“What?”
Riker demanded, angrily. Eyeing the Vorta's stern-looking escorts a few meters
away, he restrained himself from rising to his feet. “There's no reason to kill
them, Valdesh! You can capture them just as easily as you captured us!”
Valdesh
rocked back on his feet, still kneeling beside the commander. “That's true, but
I'm afraid there's no value in doing so. You were captured because your
interrogation will probably result in a great deal of classified information,
but my Jem'Hadar have already determined that your two other companions are
nothing more than low-ranking security officers, and not really worth the
effort.” Again, the arrogant Vorta offered the smirk and the helpless shrug. “Besides,
my Jem'Hadar would be terribly disappointed if I didn't let
them kill your security officers. They already have it worked out, and believe
me, you don't want to see a disappointed Jem'Hadar.”
Riker's
face twisted into a mask of rage, and without thinking, he started to rise to
his feet, but both of the Jem'Hadar protecting Valdesh stepped forward, their
pulse cannons trained on him. With some effort, Riker reigned in his temper and
remained seated.
Nearby,
Data listened to the exchange, his apprehension growing. His companions were
walking into a trap, but as much as the android wanted to warn them, he knew
that his priority had to be the tactical communication still inside the
shuttle. If he and Riker were killed, there would be no one left to destroy it
and the Vorta would almost certainly return to base with an incredible
intelligence coup. Worriedly, he scanned the landscape again but found that he
had lost sight of Hernandez and Daniels. He was sure, however, that the
Jem'Hadar had not.
* * *
Daniels
and Hernandez had managed to work their way around to an outcropping directly
across from Riker and Data, and could now see that there was another officer
seated against the shuttle next to them, as well as a Vorta and two Jem'Hadar
guards.
Daniels
quickly deduced that the other officer must have been the pilot of the shuttle
and quickly factored him into the various possible escape plans running through
his head. Unfortunately, the young officer looked injured, perhaps seriously,
and that would invariably slow them down. The only way to do this, he realized,
would be to join them near the shuttle and signal the Enterprise for
an emergency beam-out.
Unfortunately,
the Vorta and the Jem'Hadar complicated any such plan. He wasn't worried about
the Vorta—they hardly ever put up a fight—but the two unshrouded Jem'Hadar
worried him. He couldn't remember the last time he had heard of there being
only two Jem'Hadar anywhere. Fortunately, they seemed more
interested in watching Riker and the Vorta than the countryside.
Next
to him, Hernandez peered across the twenty meters or so that separated them
from their comrades. “They don't look so tough,” she declared, quietly. “I
could pick them off from here.”
Daniels
glanced at her to make sure she didn't actually intend to pick them off from
there, then returned his gaze to the scene before them. “I don't like it,” he
told his subordinate. “There should be more of them.”
Hernandez
fixed him with an eager gaze. “We should move in now, before any others show
up.”
Daniels
hesitated. It was true that he couldn't see any more Jem'Hadar, but intuition
told him there were more around, even if he couldn't see them. Still, this
seemed like the best chance they were likely to get, no matter how long they
waited. Reluctantly, he nodded in agreement. “I want to approach separately.
You move about ten meters in that—”
Hernandez
was already gone, headed toward the shuttle, without waiting for her superior
officer to explain his plan. She had always been bold—that was one of the
reasons she had opted for a security assignment in the first place—and Daniels
realized that he should have expected the young woman to deal with her
apprehension by facing it directly. Helplessly, he watched as she charged
across several meters before reluctantly following. This was a little more
direct and vulnerable than he would have preferred.
* * *
It
all happened so fast. Nash appeared only semi-conscious, but Riker and Data
could see everything as it happened.
Helplessly,
they watched as Lieutenant Hernandez broke from cover and charged toward their
position, her weapon at the ready. They could see her eyes fixed on the two
Jem'Hadar guards near Valdesh and imagined she would stop and fire on them the
moment they glanced away from their charge and noticed her. She probably wanted
to get close enough to have the best possible chance of hitting them. Behind
her, they could see Daniels emerge from cover and chase after her, covering her
back as best he could.
They
wanted to jump to their feet and charge to her aid, or shout a warning,
or something. She was already doomed, but she didn't know it.
Suddenly,
four Jem'Hadar deshrouded behind the two security officers, where only Riker
and Data could see them. Calmly, almost cruelly, they took aim at the officers'
backs. The first shot was fired at Hernandez, at an angle clearly calculated so
that there was no chance of hitting the prisoners or the Vorta on the other
side. Hernandez never had a chance.
The
pulse blast hit her squarely in the back and knocked her forward onto the
ground. With his superior vision, Data could see the young officer's face in
the split-second before she landed on her stomach. Her expression, which only
an instant before had been so full of determination, registered only shock. She
probably never knew what hit her.
At
that moment, something in Data snapped. For an instant, he saw not the death of
a young lieutenant he barely knew, but the tragic death of a former shipmate he
had known extraordinarily well. The view of Macha Hernandez, charging toward
danger, was replaced with the memory of Tasha Yar, who had died doing the very
same thing, and for a second time Data was powerless to stop it.
The
second shot was no less calculated, but Daniels' instincts and experience saved
him. Seeing the shot that killed Hernandez coming from behind him and knowing
that he was caught out in the open, the security chief turned and ducked,
bringing his weapon around to bear in the direction of the shot. He knew he
probably wouldn't survive, but he would be damned if he didn't take a few of
the bastards with him. The movement saved his life.
Instead
of striking him dead center in the back, as had the shot that killed Hernandez,
Daniels took a pulse blast in the shoulder where he had turned to face his
attackers. The force of the blast continued his spin in the direction he had
begun, but his legs buckled beneath him and the spin ended by depositing him
unceremoniously on the ground, his legs twisted beneath him. His phaser rifle
flew from his hands and he lay there, entirely at the mercy of the advancing
Jem'Hadar.
Data,
however, was already in motion. Overwhelmed with rage, Data's grief-stricken
mind dismissed his concern about his own survival and the destruction of the
classified deployment orders. In the face of Yar's death, he was compelled to
act.
With
the kind of speed that could only be employed by an android, Data reached
across Riker and gripped an astonished Valdesh by the throat, dragging him
brutally toward him. In an instant, he had the helpless Vorta arranged across
his lap as a living shield, one hand still on his throat and another firmly
gripping his chin. The Vorta,s two guards, having taken a second to glance away
and appreciate their comrades’ expertise in subduing the two Starfleet security
officers, were caught momentarily unprepared.
Data
directed his angry gaze at the Jem'Hadar advancing on Daniels. “Drop your
weapons and tell the others to deshroud, or I will snap his neck like twig!”
Riker looked on, astonished at Data's sudden decision to act. Even more
astonishing, he had to remind himself that this was still his friend, Data. The
android sounded, for all the world, like his brother, Lore.
The
Jem'Hadar, for their part, had trained their weapons on the android the instant
he had acted, but even their reflexes were no match for Data's. With their
Vorta being used as a shield, they seemed uncertain as to how they should
proceed. Riker recognized First Ramaka'tar approaching from the direction of
the soldiers who had attacked Hernandez and Daniels.
“The
Vorta is prepared to die for the glory of the Founders,” the first finally
said, uncertainly.
Valdesh
was busy grasping frantically at the hands around his neck and chin,
desperately trying to pry them off. Data, with the strength and determination
of a machine, paid him no mind.
“Do
it!” shrieked the Vorta, clearly not enamored with the idea of dying as a consequence
of Jem'Hadar stubbornness. “Drop your weapons! Unshroud!”
Ramaka'tar
and his fellows glanced at each other, uncertainly. Clearly, they were not
pleased with the idea of surrendering to an enemy, but they were loathe to
disobey a Vorta. The first nodded, and they reluctantly dropped their weapons
to the ground. Several more Jem'Hadar suddenly appeared, scattered about the
clearing, and they, too, dropped their weapons.
Riker
quickly stood, intent on taking the opportunity Data had presented them, and
took a quick head count. “That's only nine of you!” he barked at the Jem'Hadar.
“Where are the others?”
“Do
not be concerned, Commander,” Data said, still exhibiting his brother's
arrogant verbal delivery. His next comments were directed back at the
Jem'Hadar. “I am aware of the location of every shrouded Jem'Hadar in this
clearing. If you do not wish to see your Vorta die horribly in a heartbeat,
deshroud now!”
Valdesh
bubbled something incomprehensible, clearly being denied oxygen by Data's
vice-like grip, but there was no need for further encouragement. Ramaka'tar
nodded again, and three more Jem'Hadar deshrouded around the outskirts of the
group, where they had apparently been attempting to circle around behind the
shuttle.
“Good,”
declared Data. “Now all of you gather in a group over there! And kick those
weapons away!”
Again,
the Jem'Hadar reluctantly obeyed, moving in the direction Data had indicated
with a jerk of his head, and watched as their captured Vorta continued to
struggle in the android's hands. Absently, Riker wondered how long a Vorta
could go without oxygen.
As
soon as the Jem'Hadar were safely gathered together, the first officer grabbed
the closest pulse rifle and headed in the direction of the fallen Lieutenant
Daniels. The Jem'Hadar soldiers across the clearing eyed him, anger etched
across their bony faces, but they made no move to intercept him.
When
he reached the fallen security officer, he used Daniels' combadge to signal
the Enterprise and requested a hasty beam-out. Once aboard, he
would instruct the bridge to fire several quantum torpedoes on their current
position, thus obliterating the shuttle and whatever classified information
remained inside. He wasn't going to bother trying to search the wreckage with
twelve angry Jem'Hadar nearby, ready to kill him at the first opportunity.
Moments
later, the away team, Lieutenant Nash, and Valdesh dissolved in the Enterprise's
transporter beam. The body of Lieutenant Hernandez, their only fatality, would
be turned over to the ship's morgue as soon as they were aboard.
III
Deanna
gazed at Data with eyes full of compassion and understanding. “You did what you
had to do,” she told the android, kindly. “You have nothing to be ashamed of.”
Data
shook his head, clearly still troubled by what he had told the counselor. “I do
not regret my actions during the incident. It was imperative that we escape and
destroy the deployment orders aboard the shuttle, and I am grateful that I was
able to contribute to that goal. What disturbs me is my reaction to Lieutenant
Hernandez's death. I felt . . . anger, to an extent that I have felt only a
handful of times before. The previous occasions were all engineered by Lore,
but on this occasion I have no convenient excuse for my emotions.”
Deanna
considered what her friend had told her. Perhaps this is more serious
than I thought. “Data, are you concerned that you might become dangerous
again? That you might lose yourself in these negative emotions, and
accidentally injure someone?”
Data
nodded, reluctantly. “That is a possibility. In the weeks since the incident in
question, I have repeatedly felt that anger building up inside me, often
coupled with other feelings that I am unfamiliar with. Inevitably, my mind
lingers over the thought of Lieutenant Yar, and I find it difficult to
concentrate on my assigned tasks without deactivating my emotions.”
Oh.
Now I understand. Rising from her chair, Deanna once again crossed the
room and sat next to Data on the couch. She took his hand in both of hers and
looked into his eyes carefully. “I think what you're feeling is something we
all go through at one time or another,” she told him. “I think the memory of
that event may be particularly intense for you because of who it centers
around, but it's a very normal feeling under the circumstances. You're feeling
grief.”
Data
focused on her, puzzled. “You believe I am grieving for Lieutenant Yar. But
Counselor, I attended the memorial service with the rest of the senior staff at
the time of her death. Should my grieving period not have been concluded at
that point?”
“The
grieving process is different for everybody,” she explained, calmly. “For some
people, feelings of grief and loss can be worked through in a matter of weeks,
or even days, but for others the process can stretch on for a much longer
period. I've seen spouses grieve for years following the death
of their partner.”
Data
did not know what to say. Clearly, her statements should have held some meaning
for him, but whatever it was supposed to have been, he could not see how it
applied to him. He had not, after all, been Tasha's spouse.
When
a reply did not seem forthcoming, Deanna continued. “I know that you have
always considered Tasha to be special. She's the only one of your friends that
you've ever kept a portrait of. You've been involved with other women since
then, and you've had other sexual experiences, but you've always considered your
experiences with her as . . . different from the others. Do you know why that
is?”
Data
struggled with that for a moment. What she said was true, he had always
regarded his encounter with Yar to be singular and unique, a status which none
of his other relationships had ever truly achieved. Even Lieutenant Desora,
with whom he had had a more formal and involved relationship, was not
remembered as . . . fondly? In all the years since, he had never really
understood why that was.
“I
do not know,” he finally admitted to Troi.
Deanna
patted his hand with hers and offered him an understanding smile. “I think
that's something you're going to have to learn for yourself. But I will say
that I think you need some time to deal with your feelings over her death. What
you need is a few days off.” She knew Data had deactivated his emotion chip,
but for a moment she could have sworn that he looked alarmed at that prospect.
“Counselor,
the Enterprise is conducting wartime operations,” he objected.
“I am needed on the bridge.”
Deanna
shook her head. “I'll speak to the captain. I'm not talking about you leaving
the ship, and if an emergency comes up they can always summon you to the
bridge, but as long as things remain status quo I'd really like you to spend a
few days with your emotion chip on. You're never going to get
through this if you cheat and turn it off every time an unpleasant emotion
crosses your mind. All you're doing by refusing to experience them is bottling
everything up and making it worse. The root cause of your grief is still there,
and sooner or later you'll have to deal with it.”
IV
Geordi
La Forge glanced around the corridor worriedly, wondering what was taking so
long. He was standing outside Data's quarters, well within range of the sensor
grid that should have informed Data that there was someone at his door. He knew
for a fact that his friend was in there—he had checked with the computer just
before arriving—and he knew that the sensor would trigger the door chime again
every fifteen seconds or so. Still, there was no answer.
Data
had been off-duty for nearly a week now, isolated in his quarters. Although
Counselor Troi had requested that Data be granted a few days’ liberty, there
had been no mention of confinement to quarters and Geordi had become mildly
worried as the days had passed without any sign of his best friend. Now,
standing at his door, he became concerned enough to use his security override
to open the door. Whether Data liked it or not, he was having company.
“Computer,” he said, loud enough for the voice pickup to register him, “Security override, authorization La Forge-sigma-niner-niner-one-seven.” Obediently, the doors opened and La Forge stepped inside.
The
engineer was shocked by the tableau that greeted him. Normally, Data's quarters
were a model of efficiency and order. Everything was always in place, not a
speck of dust was to be found anywhere, and the place barely looked lived in.
Today, however, that was not the case. Personal items of every description
littered the floor, and several dirty cat food dishes were grouped at the foot
of the nearby replicator. In the next room, Geordi could see that Data's bed
(which he used to indulge in his dream program) was unmade and in disarray. A
brief glance around the room did not reveal his friend's presence.
“Data?”
he asked, loudly. The only answer he received was Data's cat, Spot, who came
charging from the other room to stop at Geordi's feet. The cat looked up at
him, expectantly.
Geordi
glanced at the dirty food dishes, most of which looked quite old, and quickly
realized what the problem was.
“Computer,
a bowl of Data's most recent feline supplement,” Geordi said to the replicator.
The android cat-lover was constantly working on new and improved nutritional
mixtures for Spot, and had been for years. Obediently, a bowl of cat food
shimmered into existence, and Spot attacked it ravenously as soon as the
engineer placed it on the floor.
“Data?”
he asked again, moving farther into the room, his apprehension growing with
each step.
At
the door to the bedroom, Geordi finally found the android. He was seated on the
floor along the side of the bed, his back against the mattress and his feet
against the nearby wall. Geordi noted that the android's hair was out of place,
a rarity for his meticulous friend, and his uniform (which was also normally
immaculate) significantly disheveled. He appeared to be staring at something on
the floor between his knees.
“Data?”
he asked, yet again, moving to his friend's side and kneeling down. “Why didn't
you answer me?”
Data
looked up for the first time, and Geordi was finally able to see the look of
anguish on his friend's face. If Data were human, Geordi would have been sure
that he had spent the last several hours crying.
“I
am sorry, Geordi. I suppose I was . . . distracted,” he said, apologetically.
Geordi
looked down at the floor to see what had occupied his friend's attention so
thoroughly, and thought he finally understood. There, within arm's reach, was
the single portrait that Data kept. It was a holographic image of Tasha Yar.
“Data,”
he asked, carefully, “how long have you been staring at that?”
“Three days, seven hours, fifteen minutes,” answered Data, without missing a beat. Geordi had to suppress a chuckle. Emotions or not, his friend was still an android.
“Is
. . . is there something wrong?” Geordi asked, after a moment. Clearly,
there was something wrong, or his friend wouldn't have torn up
his quarters in such a way, but he didn't want to be too direct.
Data
returned his attention to Tasha's picture and answered his friend without
meeting his eyes.
“There
are many things wrong, Geordi,” he admitted. “My life has been full of
frustrations, disappointments, tragedies, and losses. Despite that, my mind
seems to consistently return to this singular event.”
Geordi
sat down on the bed close by.
“Tasha,”
he said, simply. It wasn't a question. Counselor Troi had been discreet enough
not to divulge Data's personal difficulties to him. She was, after all, a
counselor and even though Data probably wouldn't have minded she still needed
to take patient confidentiality seriously. She had told him only that she had
recommended Data spend several days on liberty without deactivating his emotion
chip. Now, though, he'd have to be blind and deaf to not know
what the problem was. “I kind of wondered when this would catch up with you.”
Data
looked at him, curiously. “I am beginning to think that my memory recall
subroutine may be malfunctioning in some way. The memory of her death continues
to be called up without the necessary command.”
Geordi
shook his head, sadly. “No, I don't think so, Data. If that were true, your
recall subroutine would have been doing the same thing without your emotion
chip on.”
Data
looked thoughtful. “That is true. So far, I have only experienced this
spontaneous memory recall when my emotion chip has been active. Perhaps the two
components are interacting in some unanticipated manner.”
Geordi
nodded, deeply sorry that his friend had to go through this but also knowing
that it was probably inevitable. “Yeah, it happens like that sometimes.”
Data's
puzzlement seemed to be increasing by the moment. On the one hand, that was
good because it focused his mind on his curiosity instead of his grief, at
least for a moment. On the other, Geordi couldn't imagine that it was a
particularly good sign emotionally. Data had been sitting in his room alone for
three days and he still hadn't figured out why he was feeling this way. As much
as he respected Counselor Troi, Geordi decided that maybe android psychology
required a little less subtlety than the human variety. The reason for Data's
distress was plain to everyone else. Maybe his friend just needed a little help
in recognizing the obvious.
“Data,”
he began, trying to decide how best to broach the subject. “Why is it that the
only image of any of your friends is that picture of Tasha?”
Data's
face seemed to cloud momentarily as he regarded the image. “Lieutenant Yar held
a . . . unique place in my life, Geordi. I felt it important to maintain some
record of her.”
“You're
an android, Data. Your entire neural net is nothing but a method of maintaining
records. You can recall every event that's ever occurred in your life with
complete accuracy. You're not in any danger of forgetting her, or what she
looked like. So why keep the picture?”
Data
looked puzzled again. “Recalling her image from memory is not the same as
seeing her again in real time. While it is impossible to ever see her alive
again, this image seemed . . . more pleasing than simply never seeing her again
in any form.”
“Why?”
Data
shook his head. “I do not know.”
Geordi
decided to switch gears and approach the issue from a different direction.
“Data,
have you ever been in love?”
Still
focused on Geordi, Data shook his head. “I am afraid I have never been
fortunate enough to have that experience, Geordi.”
Geordi
chuckled. He knew it was inappropriate, and he knew it might hurt Data, but he
couldn't help it. To anyone but Data, it was totally ridiculous.
“Of
course you have, Data,” he said. Mildly frustrated, he stood up from
the bed and paced around the room. “Data, your specifications and programming
say that without that damn chip, you don't have emotions. Every expert you've
ever consulted has said the same thing.”
Data
sat for a moment, puzzled. This was hardly new information.
After
a moment, Geordi stopped pacing and shot Data a look, direct, penetrating, and
adamant. “No one who's known you for the last twelve years has ever really
believed that.”
The
look of puzzled astonishment on Data's face would have been comical if it
wasn't so heartbreaking. Nevertheless, Geordi knew that at this point, he
wouldn't be doing his friend any favors by sparing his feelings. He needed to
push forward, ruthlessly if necessary. Data needed to face it before he could
move on.
“Data,
we've all watched you face extraordinary situations and make decisions that
would destroy other people. We've seen you grow as a person, become more than
the sum of your programming, and become attached to other people as if they
were family. And we've watched you do it with an incredible amount of
compassion, integrity, and concern for other people's well-being. None of that
could have been done if you couldn't feel.”
Data's
mouth dropped open at the long list of compliments, but no sound came out.
Geordi pressed forward before Data could ask a question that might divert the
topic of conversation.
“Even
before we put that damn emotion chip in, you had feelings, Data. You've always
had them. You couldn't have behaved in the way you did without them. It's one
of the things that made us friends—that made all of us friends.
We could see the compassion in you, what a good person you've always been, even
if you couldn't.”
“But
Geordi,” murmured Data, finally finding his voice, “compassion and concern for
others is simply part of my programming. Dr. Soong wished to ensure that I
would not become another Lore, and so programmed me to always consider other
people's well-being.”
Geordi
held out a hand toward his friend, as if Data had just proved the point for
him.
“If
that's not compassion, I don't know what is.” He leaned closer, to emphasize
his next words. “Data, compassion is an emotion.”
Data
blinked again, and for a moment, Geordi was afraid this might be too much for
his friend's processors to handle. “But if that is true, compassion may have
been the only emotion I was capable of experiencing prior to the installation
of my emotion chip.”
Geordi
shook his head, knowing exactly how to point out the rare flaw in his friend's
thinking.
“Compassion
is one of the most basic human emotions, maybe even the most
basic. It's one of the first things we teach our children. From there, we
develop the ability to empathize, we learn to be angry at how people treat us
or treat others. We even learn to love.”
The
two friends, one human and one android, shared a long look. Eventually, Data's
gaze drifted back to the portrait of Tasha Yar on the floor.
“Data,
you fell in love with Tasha a long time ago,” said Geordi, and his heart went
out to his friend with every word he spoke. “And you have a perfect memory, an
android memory, that has kept you completely aware of how absent she's been
ever since her death. But you've been living this way for so long that I think
you learned to ignore it, to just not access that information . . . until Macha
died right in front of you, just like Tasha, and brought it all back.”
For
a long moment, Data continued to stare at the picture of Tasha Yar, seemingly
lost for words. Eventually, Geordi crossed the room and knelt beside his friend
again, placing a gentle hand on the android's shoulder.
“I
don't think this emotion chip gives you emotions, Data. I
think it amplifies what was already there.”
As
Geordi watched, a strange change came over the android, and he knew that his
grieving friend had shut off his emotion chip.
“If
you are correct,” said Data, “then this emotion chip may never have been
necessary.” Geordi was pleased to hear that his friend's speech had returned to
its normal cadence. “It may be that its input is simply too powerful and is
prone to overwhelming the rest of my operational programming.”
Slowly,
he rose from the floor. With surprising gentleness, he picked up the
holographic portrait and replaced it on the shelf bolted to the wall.
“I
do not believe that I require the assistance of the emotion chip to appreciate
my memories of Tasha,” he said without turning. “She will always occupy a
special place in my past, and I believe I can . . . feel her
absence even now, an echo in some sense of what I felt with the emotion chip
activated.”
Finally,
he turned to his friend, once more himself. “I do not wish to wallow in my
feelings, Geordi. I do not believe Tasha would have wanted that. I wish to move
on with my life and live in a manner that would make her proud.”
Geordi didn't quite know what to say to that. He wanted to say that she was already proud of him, that they all were, but he kept silent, letting Data work through what he needed to work through and suspecting what Data's next words would be.
Data
started at the floor for a long moment before he met Geordi's eyes again, and
the engineer could see they were full of resolve and . . . sadness?
“Geordi,
I believe I would like to remove my emotion chip now.”
Geordi
nodded, and allowed a small, sad smile to play across his lips.
“I'll go get my tools.”









